Alritey..i haven been updatin dis blog and i think noone really read it anyway..even if i bad mouth tat person and mention their name here..noone would even know..and yes im still e old me..emoish and all..
im havin a heart pain..i can't believe e things i've missed throughout e years or maybe it just meant to be tat way or maybe i just take a different route or decision..but watever it is tat decisions have been made and all..tat Mr Incredible msg and he seems to be a different person that i used to know..he's not e same..i dunno..maybe tats him..maybe he's change..and it breaks my heart like literally to know what he is like..okok..so i maybe be like babbling nonsense or watever..sometimes i wish i just have someone tat i can really talk to really venge out all of dis..i dunno wat to call it..not tat frens aren't listenin or concern..but u just dun tell them e whole truth..
im sad e way my life turn out to be..ppl say ur thinkin too much..am i? i wan to change dis person..i dun wan to be me anymore..i wan to be rude,brave,i wan to do bad things, i wanna swear and shout my lungs out will my tonsil drop out..i wanna do things tat i've nvr done before..for god sake im tired of ppl sayin im a good girl..i dun wan to be a good girl..so how..google up on how to be a bad girl..tats lame..okok..i feel alittle bit better..ok im lying..not even abit better..
Kicking the bins as i walk past
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
3:04 PM
Im so tired rite now..like mentally..arghh i need motivation like seriously before i start slckin like mad..have to prepare some lesson plans but kindda in no mood to do anythin..hmmm tmr i'll do it..yea rite..and tmr will turn e next day and e next and e next and den forever..
Suppose to go running 2day but sadly i trade them in wif mac..sigh..it's been a long time since i run..and im startin to feel heavier if u know wat i mean..
anyway last fri, my skool organize dis latern festival thingy..it was beautiful..to see e skool compound to be lighten up wif candles and brightly colored lanterns..just too bad i didn't took any pic of tat..oh yea..we had photoshoot..man it was fun..i'll scan some pics once it's been uploaded into e year book..till den..
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
7:25 PM
Urgh..another observation..hope i dun get tat panic attack yet..and e funny thing is, i have not even send e dates and im already havin tat all-weird feelin in my tummy..well it's a good thing tat im nervous bout it coz tat means i actually cares bout it. i hope i dun sux like e last time... but i dunno y..dis time..e term is just too short to have any observation..exams are like wat. 3 weeks away..like wtf...
so yea.panic panic panic...e roof is on fire..and ur drownin in e sea..
if tat ever makes sense..
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:07 PM
Arghhh!!! music lesson tmr..and im so nervous..gotta plan for it..gotta sing..my voice croaks like a frog..!!!!!
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:00 PM
