I missed lots of stuff dis one week coz of my flu and my headache..basically i missed out IOS chalet yesterday coz of e headache i had after the interview..went to bed staright away after i got home and woke up wif a banging in my head..so i stayed at home thinkin bout all the fun they're gonna have while im at home sick...
So the interview was ok there was like 7 of them askin me questions and stuff but they didn't really anked me alot..so i hope it's a good sign and hope i get dis job..but e thing is i'll only will know it in 2 weeks time and even if i get it..i'll only start the training in sept coz they followin the NIE semester thing..so CROSSING MY FINGER, AND HOPE I GET IT...
Peace Out,Bitches
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
6:50 PM
Well, down with a flu for a couple of days already..omg..i can't afford to be sick wif the interview comin up dis saturday..shit im so nervous bout it coz i know the interview is gonna be like me being interviewed by a couple of interviewer..shit i wish i know all e questions tat they are gonna ask me..so tat i would get ready..i was suppose to get ready for the interview yesterday but i was just too sick to do..and i thought i would be better 2day but no..not 2day coz i can hardly open my eyes and my nose is so itchy and runny...so i guess i'll just get ready for it tmr,friday..hmmm...so on saturday im goin to e interview alone..damn tats gonna make me more nervous...u know..i know a few question tat they would ask..like:- " What makes YOU have the QUALITY to teach" or " WHY are you interrested in dis field" i haven thought of the answers yet..but i dun to think bout it too much too..u know wat i mean...oh well..just hope tat i'll be better tmr before the interview..and wish me luck ppl..
Anyway i got a msg from shimin tat her grandfather had just passed away..i always i've known tat her grandpa was sick..and i know tat everyone has to go sometimes...but e thing is i wanted to comfort her..i wan to tell her tat everythin will be fine..it's just e way of life..but i couldn't find the words to comfort her...i was like staring at e screen of my phone thinkin of words to say to her...i hate it when i get tongue tied..i mean i feel it and i wanna say it out but i just can't..it's the most suckiest feeling in the world...
Life is short they say..and i dunno y they say tat..i mean yes lately i find time is moving so fast that i can barely stand up wif it swooshing past me..days turn to weeks, weeks turn to months..and months turn to years..i hate dis feeling of running out of time...when i start feeling tat im running out of time..i tend to panic..and i tend to do desperate stuff without thinkin..and dis make ppl run away from me..i love to take things old..but hello im dying everyday..so how much more do u think i have to enjoy...ok u guys may say den enjoy every seconds of it..yes i would love too but most of the seconds im worryin every single small steps i take..
Anyway i need to start makin some of my wishlist come true before it's running too late..yikes..!!@~#
Im sick:(
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
3:04 PM
Hello..wats up readers..hope u guys are doin fine? survivin?
Well im havin a fabulous day i think..anyway i just got a stiff wif my younger sister, she just drive me crazy sometimes..and NO, im not dishin bad stuff bout her here tats so childish..i have to admit ta we always fight but hey, who doesn't..i guess tats wat they say tough love or sibling love or watever..sometimes at times like dis makes me wish tat i was e only childwhere i would get e room to myself and not gettin my clothes at her closet or sharing any stuff...but den again i would be lonely isn't it..hmmm who can i share my secrets or my whinnin to..tat'll be sad...i guess tat goes for kelly carlson song..my life would sucks without you..hahha..anyway i just wish she would just listen to me for once and not complain bout it..hmm...it's unfair...
Im thinkin of watchin a movie wif mummy..hhmmm i've realize tat lately i've avoidin my bestfren..i dunno y..it's seem like im just too tired to go out wif her anymore..and it makes me sad and dissapointed..i dun wan dis to happen..coz it sux..and it seems my fren list is gettin short too...oh yea..my 22 year old cousin is gettin married dis year..omg!!! crisis..she's gettin married and e other is engaged and wat do i have..my heart is still half empty..i dunno..but im just not ready to commit..i mean i wan a bf a long term one..but i just can't find e right guy..maybe it's not my time yet...so givin up on my love side..i decided tat a carreer one i should concetrate more..i know it dun gives us love at lonely times..but it makes our pockets happy(: rite..hahaha...so it shall be..carreer is to come first till i have like a million bucks$$$ in my bank...who says u can't find happinest eelse where..
My feet hurts...
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
2:02 PM
Damn, was super moody that friday, maybe coz im missing him. It's totally sux when u start missing someone who doesn't give a shit bout you. And im tryin very hard to forget him but i can't, the more i try to forget him, the more i'll miss him. The thing is i dun see havin a bright future wif him and i know this..But why is that i still somehow wishes that he would wan to be wif him..He's so hard to trust.Anyway, i was like pouting and dragging my feet all the way to work...thinkin of him and swearin at him for the fact that he left me without sayin anythin..anyway the day of work still have to carried on..did the opening of merlion do watever im suppose to do..and den my day brighten up with my beloved collegue,Saleha..she's so funny..she talks bout stuff alittle of sentosa gossip playin around..i totally forgot bout him and sudden;y he doesn't matter anymore to me..
And then in the late afternoon without me expecting anythin..there he is at e fountain with that smirk on his face lookin at my direction..i was kindda happy to see him, i have to admit but at the same time i was angry at him..Then he came by and i purposely asked him where did he go even though i've already know the answer, and the first thing he said was "why,do you miss me?" WTH!! when those few words came out from his mouth i knew he had been playin wif me..i dunno..maybe he just sees me as a fren or a flirt fren..i dunno..but i kindda told myself wat an asshole he is, but just now i just msg him and invited him to come wif me and my frens for the trip to batam...i do wan him to come but somehow i just got this weird vibe..i dunno..
Anyway that saturday i got an email for an interview as an allied teacher for MOE, i so freakin happy..im ready to mould my future..im ready to leave everythin..im ready to be just me, everythin for me me me..i dun wan anyone to stop me..and i do hope my interview goes well..so do pray for me that i would get e job..coz i need a break from all this nagging at home..sometimes i just feel that they dun understand me..and they dun even know that i dun understand myself as well..i have to admit it i am scared..i am super terrified..but i dunno wat i am scared of..MY FUTURE? GROWING UP? LONELY?
I am scared.
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:50 PM
Do you guys realise somethin...im always blogging on sundays hmmm..weird..i just can't seem to find something wise or funny to say..im so bored 2day..bleh...
i did some baking 2day and it turn out to be yummy..wanna try my food give me a call..muackz
Macoroni and cheese??
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
7:11 PM
I had the weirdest dream yesterday, i was a superhero not wif super power or anythin just a brave heart. I dun remember much of it but i know i save this guy in my dream from a shooting ball of fire.. i punch him out of the way and run for safety way from tat evil somethin.. i dun really know from whom we are running away.. and then we bump into my mom and we started arguing and i started screaming as if i dun care who she is to me.. But then i woke up coz my sister was gettin ready for work..hmmmm
Have u ever wish for a life that is more interesting and not always stuck in a routine, a continous cycle, where u have nothin to do, where it's always e same thing over and over again.. well i do..i wan my life to be like one of those movies where u go on an adventure and then somethin bad happen to u and u met someone good-looking, and then u start on an adventure and u fall in love..dun it seems like everythin turns out to be wat u excatly wanted in movies.. the prince always get the princess and the knight in shinning armour..or get myself bitten by a vampire and den i can live forever at dis age..but den won't i get lonely, won't i get bored of living..i guess its sometimes better to die den to live forever alone and living in e same routine forever...but too bad reality sucks.. there's no real romance adventure isn't it..and the princess dun always get the knight that she wans.. and if there is a vampire..call me..hahhaa
Today is sunday and im having e same repetition days again...i wake up, eat my meals, watch some tv, go out, and den night falls- i go to bed again.and den it's e next day.. u know wats my ultimate dream is, is to go backpacking in Europe, that would be so nice...coz i need to see e world..i really wan to..hmmm...i dunno...oh well
I love white
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
1:28 PM
I snipped off my fringe 2day and now it's super super short and it looks so weird, oh man..i guess i just have to pin it up..super ugly but i dun think it's tat obvious..and khariya u better pay me 50 bucks to keep my mouth shut if not im gonna tell ur mummy..haha:P
Went on an imaginary date wif my werewolf friend..HOT
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:30 PM
