Damn, was super moody that friday, maybe coz im missing him. It's totally sux when u start missing someone who doesn't give a shit bout you. And im tryin very hard to forget him but i can't, the more i try to forget him, the more i'll miss him. The thing is i dun see havin a bright future wif him and i know this..But why is that i still somehow wishes that he would wan to be wif him..He's so hard to trust.Anyway, i was like pouting and dragging my feet all the way to work...thinkin of him and swearin at him for the fact that he left me without sayin anythin..anyway the day of work still have to carried on..did the opening of merlion do watever im suppose to do..and den my day brighten up with my beloved collegue,Saleha..she's so funny..she talks bout stuff alittle of sentosa gossip playin around..i totally forgot bout him and sudden;y he doesn't matter anymore to me..
And then in the late afternoon without me expecting anythin..there he is at e fountain with that smirk on his face lookin at my direction..i was kindda happy to see him, i have to admit but at the same time i was angry at him..Then he came by and i purposely asked him where did he go even though i've already know the answer, and the first thing he said was "why,do you miss me?" WTH!! when those few words came out from his mouth i knew he had been playin wif me..i dunno..maybe he just sees me as a fren or a flirt fren..i dunno..but i kindda told myself wat an asshole he is, but just now i just msg him and invited him to come wif me and my frens for the trip to batam...i do wan him to come but somehow i just got this weird vibe..i dunno..
Anyway that saturday i got an email for an interview as an allied teacher for MOE, i so freakin happy..im ready to mould my future..im ready to leave everythin..im ready to be just me, everythin for me me me..i dun wan anyone to stop me..and i do hope my interview goes well..so do pray for me that i would get e job..coz i need a break from all this nagging at home..sometimes i just feel that they dun understand me..and they dun even know that i dun understand myself as well..i have to admit it i am scared..i am super terrified..but i dunno wat i am scared of..MY FUTURE? GROWING UP? LONELY?
I am scared.
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
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