I would like to say tat i dun have any regrets in anythin i have been doin for e past few years, den i would just be lying to myself..i dun owe anyone for where i am now..but just myself..i guess sometimes in life u just make mistake in decision making and when everythin starts to fall apart, u just realize it's just too late..sometimes ppl tell me not to give up and try my best to get up and find another solution..but lately it seem to me tat there's nothin tat can be done to save me..i mean for goodness sake, i pick myself up again and again but i still fall down, maybe im just not tryin hard enough or im just scared to find another way...im really really startin to feel helpless and i tell u tat e shortcut always seem a tempting solution to all dis, but there's always the consequences of it..it means tat i will get further deeper into e woods and further away from e road..
And all this stress things are making me to start to lose the little happiness and fun in me..i can go a day wif a fake smile and a friendly chripy mood..but dee inside im crumbling..and i hate pretending to be okay and i hate it tat ppl think im okay..coz den i have to pretend tat i am.. i tend to space out dis few weeks..ppl would be babbling to me and suddenly poof im somewhere else..this is wat happens when u take ur life a day at a time..
A fren told me dis..
A man took out a 20 bucks from his wallet and hold it infront of a grp of ppl,
"Who would like to have dis?"
Everyone hold their hands high.
The man den crumple the 20 buckz and asked the same question again.
Again everyone put their hands up.
The man den throw the money to e ground and start to stamp the money.
Now the money is all crumpled and dirty, he asked the same question again.
And still everyone put their hands up again.
Do you see the morale of it,
No matter wat e man did to the money, it didn't decrease the value of it.
Many times in our lives, we've failed many times..
And we thought ourself as worthless..
Creased, clean, crumpled or dirty, we are still tat 20 buckz
We shouldn't decrease in our value, coz all of us start as a champion.
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
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